- Holy much needed update batman!
- April 25th, 2012
WOW! I can't believe it's been so long since I've written on any of my journals! There's so much that's gone on, but the biggest is my daughter. She's almost 2 years old now. So hard to believe honestly! I probably should spill my guts in blog more often I'd probably feel better, so I'm going to spill what I can here and now and if I feel better, maybe I'll remember to post more.
In the last almost 2 years, what has happened? Let's see, friends have come and gone over and over again. And so has family. I've truly learned who I can and cannot trust. And I've learned that once you have children, you lose the majority of your friends. I guess no one likes to hear about how much I love my daughter. Anyone who knows me, knows that Dyanna has been a huge part of me. Not to brag, but I'm not one of those parents that has a kid and continues with life the way it was before. Unfortunately, that's caused me to lose most of my best friends. And it's also caused me to mend fences with others.
My father's family has alienated me entirely (with the exception of a couple cousins). They decided that I'm not important enough because my mother wasn't my father's first wife but his second. My aunt actually had the balls to walk up to me and my mom at the last family reunion and ask why we were there and said that we were always the outcasts and always would be. For the greater good of my daughter, I no longer bother with them and their bullshit. I want to raise my daughter with the most positive people I can. And honestly, they're assholes. I get tired of hearing that my father would be disappointed in me for who I've become (they think I'm a lazy mother, yeah if they only lived one day of my life, there's no laziness when you're the stay at home mother of a 20 month old child! lol).
I tried making amends with someone from my past, but she screwed me over royally, once again. So that didn't last. BUT, thanks to her I did get back on track with the people we used to live with and got all square there.
Let's see what else....
My husband finally got the job that he was after. He now works as a correctional officer for the county! Yup, that's my boy :) He's been there almost a year now, and it's the first job he's ever liked in his 16 years of working. So that's a plus as well. The negative is, I'm home almost 24/7. I hate not leaving, but hey, we do what we gotta do I guess.....
Onto more about Dyanna (yes I'm going to talk about my baby!!) I'm so proud of her. She's a spitting image of her mama. She's got a smart mouth, already lol. She's just so intelligent for her age, and no, I'm not just saying that as a braggy mommy, her doctor says she's very advanced for her age. The first time I showed her a picture of her grandpa (my dad), I showed her a few others of other things, and then we laid out the pictures, and we go "Where's grandpa?" She picked up the picture of my dad and pointed right at him. Not bad for her age :) I love this kid more and more and more every day
Now onto some bullshit drama that I need to vent about....
My childish little bitch cousin...where do I start? Let's make a long story short here.... My cousin told me she's not going to come to my daughter's 2nd birthday party unless her boyfriend was welcomed. Her boyfriend is a drug addict and was caught dealing cocaine, and he was arrested. So, why in the world would I want that kind of influence around my baby??? My daughter needs good people in her life! I told her no, and all hell broke loose. And now she refuses to talk to me. Personally I say good riddance because she really needs to fall flat on her face with her head so far up her own ass. My baby and the safety of her friends is more important than not having her and her cocaine hyped boyfriend at my baby's party. She threatened to have my husband fired from his job because I knew that her boyfriend was in jail. It's public freaken knowledge. And it was public knowledge as to why. There ain't nobody that better mess with his job, I'll bust faces and y'all know that one!
Anyways, I think I'm done for now. I gotta do the never ending dishes, and make dinner.... ahh the joys of being a stay at home wife and mother.... Peace y'alls